my story

disclaimer: i feel like our ‘story’ is always a work in progress; as our awareness shifts, healing occurs and our goals upgrade…we naturally make new meaning out of the things we have been through. depending on the month, year etc different points in our history will feel important while others are overlooked. i anticipate releasing updated versions of my ‘story’ as time passes, to suit these organic shifts in perspective and meaning-making. :)

i was born in new york city, november 1991. i am scorpio sun, aries moon, aquarius rising. my parents were together at the time of my birth, and by all accounts had been happily married for some time. on the material plane i was born into substantial privilege. my father was a lawyer and my mother was a stay-at-home mom; they were both white US citizens.

while i believe everything occurs because our souls choose it (and this means my parents were asking for me to be born), i don’t think my parents understood the magnitude of what they were about to receive. i know that i entered this incarnation to break any and all remaining karmic cycles. while my parents agreed to this on…some level, they were not at all prepared for it on this plane of existence.

within the first 5 years of my life my parents’ marriage fell apart. my mother was clinically depressed and unable to get out of bed most days. my father was violent, abusive, a shadowy figure who traveled extensively for work and only appeared in our lives to dole out trauma before disappearing again. my mother lacked the capacity to protect herself or me.

by the time i was 4 i was being raped on a regular basis and keeping it a secret from everyone around me. i had been pulled out of preschool by my mother, in response to teachers’ concerns that i appeared ‘adultified’ and displayed signs of being abused. i have a distinct memory of my grandmother taking me to school and asking me if anyone was touching me. i denied it, and in that moment felt my last true source of connection disappear.

my memories from age 5 to age 16 are shadowy at best. i attended a prestigious all-girls school; i got amazing grades and everyone told me i could do anything that i wanted, until the pressure got so overwhelming that i started doing drugs and gave up on school. i got sober at 16 and began my conscious healing journey.

for better or worse i have had to chart the course for myself. while i’ve had guides, mentors or supports appear at various points in my journey it is usually for a year or two at most before the contract is completed.

i believe this is due to my intention in the first part of my incarnation of being a cycle-breaker, here to resolve all my karma. most of my relationships have been about completing and closing out our contracts rather than building something in this incarnation. it is only since 2019 (my timeline jump) that i have started to meet and build with the beings i am truly desiring a future with.

due to the emphasis on completion i’ve had in this lifetime, i’ve truly become an expert at closing out karma. i am a cycle-breaker. it’s what i’m naturally good at, and it’s what i thrive on offering clients.

being a cycle-breaker and a completer of contracts has led me to research, study, train in and ultimately upgrade beyond countless spiritual teachings, trauma healing techniques, energetic modalities and attachment-based interventions. it’s led me to master a physiological as well as energetic understanding of the nervous system, complex trauma, attachment theory, subconscious reprogramming, neural rewiring and soooooo many other understandings that reside at the nexus of the body and the energy system.

i studied every single one of these things to gain some kind of support, completion, shift or mastery WITHIN MYSELF. once that cycle was broken i inevitably moved on, to master the next skill or integration that was relevant to my healing.

this was my path from 2008 - 2019: one of deep healing and completion more so than anything else. as i shared, in 2019 i jumped timelines because my intention for the lifetime that began in 1991 was complete. i had closed out all my karma and fulfilled my mission. as a result i had the option to leave Earth or to stay, if i accepted a new mission (timeline). i chose to stay. since then i have been focused on sharing all that i have learned as well as creating a life of deep joy, love and sovereignty.

at this point in time i am excited to be immersed in the process of building a New Earth. i do this primarily through my frequency - my pure existence and being. i love co-creating, living, connecting and working with other beings who share this desire!

my most profound manifestation to date has been my soul mate / partner / husband, herbert cordova. you just read my story so i’m sure you can imagine - for a long time i believed true love or romantic connection would be impossible for someone like me. true love was what i always wanted most and also what i felt most powerless to create in my life.

literally the first human being i met after i jumped timelines, was herbert. you can’t make this shit up! it took about a year, a pandemic and a cross-country move from my beloved NYC - but we got together. i can’t imagine life without him. every day i promise myself, and him: i will never take our love for granted.

nowadays herbert and i travel the world, i create energy activations to share with bornawakes like me, and a few times a year i have the enormous honor of walking incredible humans through my retainer process.

i love my life soooo much! it’s bananas. there is always expansion available - now i’m getting interested in impact investing and regenerative agriculture - but for me, everything comes from the foundational frequency of LOVE. all i want to do is live as a heartbeat of love for this planet, our world, and my own operating system. a heartbeat of love, expanding in ever-increasing ripples waves and cycles, forever and ever and always. the end.

i welcome the experience of sharing in this pulse of love, available to us all, with you. thank you for reading! i’m excited to be here with you.

all my love,

xx spirit